Life Without

Nov 3, 2010 by

I am currently living without the following:

  • Diet Coke
  • Zoloft

Which means life has a really new feeling.  Not always a “shiny new wonderful” feeling, but new none the less.

I’ve been drinking Diet Coke for years and years.  I’ve gone off and on, depending on my whims.  So, here’s my truth: the reason I’m not drinking Diet Coke at the moment is because I’m choosing to drink Green2O.  (Green2O is a chlorophyll/fulvic mineral drink produced by my company)  Why am I choosing this?  Because.  There are so many obvious reasons, like it is better for me, etc.  But, the bottom line is “this is what I feel to do.”

So, things don’t feel familiar to me.  For example: this morning I woke up STARVING.  And then the starving turned into a weird woosy “I’m not in my body” kind of feeling.  And that was AFTER I’d eaten!

I’m forgetting more things… like words, and stuff I’m supposed to remember to do.

I spend my days eliminating (for you more down-to-earth types that would be peeing and pooping).

I am sleeping better, although it takes me a little longer to get to sleep.

I am exhausted by 4:00 in the afternoon.  Still can’t put my finger on that one.

I realize this is a work in progress, and likely living without Zoloft is having far more effect on me than I realize.  Why did I quit taking an anti-depressant that I’ve been on for over 12 years?

Because I ran out and forgot to refill.

Ta-Da!  That is how I do self-improvement, people!  I FORGET!

However, last night when I was having a moment of panic (about money, my favorite panic topic), I REMEMBERED that I had tools and skills!

So, I did some tapping.  (For those who want to know more about tapping, check out this guy: Magnus at  And voila!  It worked.  The panic subsided, I calmed, and there you go. Life without drugs.

I will say, however, that the tapping drove Marley (the more neurotic of my little dogs) crazy!  She was all over me, thinking we were playing a game.  And I, in my OCDness, was thinking, “DOG, I’m going to screw up the tapping and create something I don’t want.”

Hahahaha.  And you wonder why my dog is neurotic.

So I may be living without, but I am also living WITH:

  • Laughter
  • Joy
  • Being present
  • Love

Remember, you can never be without with out being with.  (Now there’s a sentence I never thought I’d write!)

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