Today: Gemini moon, Mercury and Mars Retrograde
I have been out of sorts since Monday morning. I don’t know if it was all the singing I did last weekend (two big rehearsals and two BIG concerts) or that I’m still not totally in my body from Hawaii (three weeks ago!) or the time change.
But I’m feeling slightly off kilter. Not depressed. Not sad. Just feel like I haven’t hit my stride. Stressed. Anxious. Those are better descriptors, although I can’t point to the source of all of it.
Right at this very moment I am alone. That is a strange phenomenon, as I have more family in California than usual. Kjarsti arrived today for a short vacay, and CB is off to Santa Barbara for a few days. Rob is also in town. (Ben and Julia are in Guatemala on their Spring Break humanitarian project)
In this stillness and quiet I need to regroup. I need to do some grounding and meditating. I need to drink a gallon of water. I need to sleep. Those are the things my body and spirit are craving.
Isn’t it ironic that when we feel at our worst (well, I”m not at my worst, just to be clear) we totally neglect the very things that could right us again? I completely forget all the tools and skills I have for just this purpose! Just watch, I’ll wander around for a few days looking spaced out when I could have just turned off the damn computer, meditated for 15 minutes, and be right as rain.
Man, that was a whole lot of info about what a nitwit I am (on occasion).
Perhaps the stillness is just what I need… the space to unwind. Until the next time.