Well, it’s February. January was definately better than December. December was the worst.
I’m more hopeful about Robbie and I”m holding energy for him on his Adventure to Florida.
I’m in a semi-panic about my financial situation. Something has to give and I’m not sure what. Maybe the $300 a month I spend on John would make a difference.
If I’m down to just me and K at home, do I need to stay in such a big house? And then I think about moving and it makes me sick to my stomach.
Things at work are good. Much better now that Jesse and Harold are gone from the office. However, I don’t believe the drama is totally done. But I am practicing having no energy on it. NuWorld is gone, and that is a good first start.
Relationships? Still not interested.
Food? My love/hate relationship continues.
All in all, I’m doing pretty well. If I had $5,000 I’d be doing better. But it isn’t all about money.
According to Shantel, it’s going to be a great year for those who know what they want. And believe me, I know what I want.
Julia and I spent the day yesterday working on our 2009 Manifestation books. We pulled cards from various decks and then created beautiful pages representing each month.
June and July have me very nervous… I pulled all kinds of cards about partnership and marriage. Obviously I’m going to have to have a major change in attitude about any kind of relationship before then.
I am so glad to have the energies of 2008 move out and welcome the new energies of this year. I truly believe that amazing things are going to happen.
Just moving out the energy of L&L has done wonders for me, although I see my two best friends struggle. Linda is so overwhelmed with money, family, and work situations that it pains me. I have to take deliberate steps to unhook from her emotions. Jan struggles with health and depression issues, and all I can do is love her and support her.
December was a heinous month. My anxiety and depression hit a huge point, so that I manifested it through horrible rashes on my arms and abdomen. Finally, with medication I was able to get on top of the rash, but tat didn’t really affect my deep concern for Rob.
Rob was back with heroin and struggling with his addiction. Wondering if your child is going to make it through the night was not my favorite idea of passing time. I had to over and over again give it to Christ and let the fear run off me.
But right this minute, things seem to have settled. I know I return to work tomorrow with a bucket-full of things to do, but the week also brings a return to singing in a choir on Monday, and seeing great friends at work.
Like I said, I am grateful to be in the new energies of 2009.
I asked about how to manage the energy bombardment from L&L. She said I have a “cute angel” named Martin who is working with me now. He said, “I may be the jester, but not the fool.” He has diversionary energies, like a troubador. He is helping me right now.
She gave me the instructions on how to flush and reconfigure my energy so I’m off the grid. Ask Archangel Michael to flush the old traces of the energy. Then ask Archangel Ariel to reconfigure the energy.
She told me that the type of energy that L&L are sending is a kind of alien reptilian energy. It comes from entities in the game they play. This isn’t good alien energy: it is controlling and takes away personal power and it is especially directed to powerful lightworkers. It looks like “the world owes me so I don’t have to work, I don’t have to do it myself.” The energy uses my own DNA and hooks the energy onto the DNA. It is not light and vibrating. It will kill the host. She suggested that the probe of this energy is located in my hip and that I should find some Theta worker to pull it out. She also said she sees me as a Vice President. But it is all about being patient about the timing.
She also said that things at work are going well. There is a “delay in full integration” but to be assured that all is happening in integrity. The money will come trickling in, but in February there should be a substantial inflow.
I will probably be able to buy a home in around 18 months. But it will go smoothly.
My thyroid is tired and low, and it is affecting my adrenals.
There is another relationship coming, but only when I feel self-suficient and on equal ground with my partner. She said it will be a “yummy relationship” and that there is a connection to Hawaii with him, and that he has abundance.
She says that she does see me travelling someplace exotic next year…
And that Mom is around me a lot, encouraging me to have fun and to show her pride in my work.
I have not been a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints for three months. Exactly.
I still have dreams at night where I am being lured back into the fold, and then when I awaken, I feel that dead part of my heart where my testimony used to reside. I made the right desicion, and if I didn’t, well, I hope God forgives me.
So much has shifted in the last three months. My relationship with L&L has completely vanished. They use their energy in such an irresponsible way, I have felt the effects personally and have seen it in my family. That to me is inexcusable for two women who supposedly as so enlightened.
We are a week away from the Presidential elections. I voted for Obama, but of course, in Utah, it is a meaningless vote.
I am sick of being in the same place I was financially a year ago, two years ago… it is time for this company to step up. It is all talk and has been for the last three years.
I’m talking to Shantel next week and I hope she has good news. I need it.
Lianne Young Bremer
DOB: February 22, 1956
1117 W 1500 N, Orem, UT 84057
July 29, 2008
Member Records Division, LDS Church
50 E North Temple Rm 1372
SLC UT 84150-5310
This letter is my formal resignation from the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints and it is effective immediately. I hereby withdraw my consent to being treated as a member and I withdraw my consent to being subject to church rules, policies, beliefs and ‘discipline’. As I am no longer a member, I want my name permanently and completely removed from the membership rolls of the church. I want it stated that I requested this resignation, and that there be no indication of any other reason for my name being removed from church records.
I have given this matter considerable thought. I understand what you consider the ‘seriousness’ and the ‘consequences’ of my actions. I am aware that the church handbook says that my resignation “cancels the effects of baptism and confirmation, withdraws the priesthood held by a male member and revokes temple blessings.” I also understand that I will be “readmitted to the church by baptism only after a thorough interview”.
My resignation should be processed immediately, without any ‘waiting period’. I am not going to be dissuaded and I will not change my mind.
I expect this matter to be handled promptly, with respect and with full confidentiality.
After today, the only contact I want from the church is a single letter of confirmation to let me know that I am no longer listed as a member of the church. I respectfully request that no one from the church call me on my telephone or come to my home. Sincerely,
On this _______ day of _________________ (month and year), I certify that the preceding or attached document is a true, exact, complete, and unaltered photocopy from the original document of Letter of Resignation, presented to me by the document’s custodian, ________________________________ (name of custodian).
Name of Notary: ____________________________________________ Notary Public, State of ___________ My commission expires ___________________
I fully realize that it has been my choice not to communicate with you, however, there are some things I would like to express. I do not require or want a reply to this letter.
Brent Hatch was a man with a deep and serious pornography addiction that affected our marriage for most of the 5 years we were together, as well as his first marriage. He spent all of his time at home in the basement online doing God knows what. The fact that all he got was a slap on the hand from you is absolutely abhorrent to me, especially since you chose to pursue church discipline against me for following my own conscience and going quietly inactive. I truly believe Brent was in contact with the woman he just married long before he had even mentioned the word divorce to me. It is a pattern, Bishop. He will do it to this woman too, just as he did it to me, and just as he did it with his first wife.
However, because Brent has the ability to look good, to show up on Sundays when he is “well enough” (he was home “sick” most Sundays for 5 years… likely because he was feeling either unworthy or distracted by some new online contact), and is sufficiently self-righteous to “turn in” his wife who had some differing beliefs, Brent will coast through life in the noxious haze of self-hatred and self-righteousness that he affects so well. The truth is, and I found this out way too late, is that Brent Hatch lies to himself and lies to others about who he really is. It is a sad state, and I am truly sorry for him.
One additional thing I’d like to bring up. I noticed that someone from the Church spent quite a bit of time going through my blog and websites with a fine toothed comb, carefully checking that I hadn’t written anything derogatory about you or the Church. Is this standard operating procedure for everyone in the church with a website, or is this just me because my ex-husband raised a red flag? Robert Kirby referred to these kind of people as ”The Lord’s Hall Monitors” and I guess that is exactly what it is. Frankly, I find it to be cyber-stalking. I have to ask myself why are you spending so much time going through my online life instead of counseling people like Brent on their addictions?
There is nothing that can be done about any of it now; I would just like you to consider your approach to this business and ask yourself if you really handled it in the best way you could. Hopefully, in the future, other women in this ward will not be victims of their husband’s underhandedness and deception in an attempt to cover their own sins. I bear neither you or the church any ill will. I just hope you learn from this experience. I know I have.
Again, I do not wish to have a response from you regarding this letter or my resignation. I send you love and light and peace in your journey.
It seem that every time I put someone in my life in a place of authority or think them smarter, better, more in tune, the Universe slaps me upside the head.
Such is the case right now with L&L. My two lightworker friends whom I love, whom I have allowed to teach me and show me new things about myself… well, just as there is great light there is all the shit behind it.
I don’t want to go into details. God knows I’ve rehearsed them enough in my head. But suffice it to say I am being asked to learn how to be in my circuit of energy without allowing them to manipulate, chord to, or even give energy to the issues. I am supposed to go to their house for the 4th of July tomorrow, but have about as much interest in that as I do in having dental work.
I will likely go, and attempt to be myself. After all, as far as I am concerned, no one has said anything to me, and apparently they would rather air their issues with others rather than come to me with them.
I’m pissy today. Have to deal with men who think they run the place but who don’t do anything to run the place. And because I’m considered low-woman on the totem pole, I get the brunt. My boss is the only one who truly appreciates my gifts, my dedication, and my determination. The others treat me like “the little woman” and are offended or threatened if I do my work.
I don’t get it. If this company is going to succeed, it is going to have to remove the latin-influenced chauvinism from it’s Executive Team. And stop being threatened by a woman who is smarter and more on-the-ball than they are.
Yeah, I’m pissy. I’ll get over it, but this is just another example of how I manage to bring a man (or men) into my life to discount me.
I am finding it more and more difficult to deal with one of the men I work with. He is your classic “priesthood” leader, former Mission President, and Bishop. That in and of itself wouldn’t bother me. It is the way he works, the way he condescends, the way he has to make everyone wrong.
He is passive aggressive to the max, complaining about me behind my back, and when he has some criticism of me, he has to copy everyone in the company on the email.
I am sure he is insecure. He is way out of his comfort zone in this business, and he isn’t quite making the grade. So naturally he uses the age-old technique of deflecting criticism from himself by finding fault with another. And that other is usually me. I’m too strong, too smart, and too on the ball for him to “manage” so he attacks me in really passive aggressive ways. In some ways he really reminds me of my ex.
However, I’ve noticed that he treats all the women this way. We are obviously inferior, and are to be treated as secretaries and slaves.
Have I mentioned that it bugs the shit out of me?
Well, I have a learning around this, that’s for sure. I have to find a way to be assertive without turning to passive aggressive behavior. I know I’m really “red” in personality, I like to get things done right and quickly. That isn’t his style, and it bugs him, and then he bugs me.
